The story of Lexa and Clarke gave me hope, it’s as simple as that. Until this show I had never allowed myself to become invested in a fandom as much as I did with Clexa/t100. I, like many others, fell into Jason’s trap. I had seen it happen time and time again, wlw characters being killed off in traumatic ways as a plot device.
I thought I was hardened to it. But Lexa was different. She was a well written lesbian character, and wonderfully portrayed by ADC. Seeing a lesbian in such a powerful and significant role, and not just a side character as per-usual, was refreshing and uplifting. Again it gave me hope, that I may not be relegated to a life hiding in the shadows and tiptoeing around heteronormativity just to be able to live my life in relative peace.
Gay marriage is still illegal in my country and 90% of my family are extremely conservative Christians who constantly say horrible things about gays/lesbians, to the point that I will likely never be able to be fully out to them without the high chance of being disowned. The death of Lexa came at an already incredibly difficult time in my life. My Dad had suddenly passed away less than a year before and the Clexa relationship and the fandom was my escape.
Reading fanfics and discussing theories about the (then) upcoming season. Lexa had become a part of my daily life without me actually realizing it. The night Lexa died I cried as hard as I did in the aftermath of my own father’s death, which speaks volumes as to how much she meant to me as a character. At first I felt stupid for being so upset over a fictional character but seeing that I wasn’t alone in my despair, and subsequent anger, fueled me.
I don’t want to see this happen on this scale again. I don’t wanted to see a group of vulnerable kids baited in the same way again. This movement has already started conversations and helped shed light on how dire the situation really is. While we can only hope showrunners will start being more considerate, we do know that because of this movement those who continue to use tired tropes will be called out. We won’t back down and continue to let our onscreen representation be used for ratings only to face a tragic end. No one fights for us.