Hi, I’m a simple young woman, 20, with a complex life. The truth is my sexuality wouldn’t be so complex if society and stereotypes didn’t make it out to be. The truth is I’ve been given labels all my life. Lesbian, confused, disgusting, bisexual, crazy etc, etc. To the point that when i was younger i actually did believe that I was confused but now a little more grown, i realize that I’m not confused I know exactly what i want , exactly who I’m attracted to.
I know who I am, what’s confusing is the labels, what makes it hard is how people treat you, the stereotypes that you are expected to portray, the attitude given to you in response. I went from being told, “stop pretending to be straight” because I’m not tomboyish, to having comments like” you must be a freak in bed” and being treated like someone who isn’t worth taking seriously, by people who figured out my dating history.
Apparently dating both automatically qualifies you as a slut, who no one considers for a serious relationship. Its in the media, its in the world. Television promotes awful stereotypes that just make u wanna stop feeling what u feel just so your not associated with the stereotype. Lexa was different. Lexa was one of those characters that I saw myself in and made me extremely proud. Because Lexa was a true representative of who I was and who I wanted to be. She was way more than just her sexuality. She was a girl with responsibilities, with values, super brave, intelligent, tactful, who fell body and soul in love with a girl. She was a women with a strong heart and yet was exceedingly vulnerable and yet could still rule the world. She fought for stuff and still she had enough heart to let love seep in.
I love what she represented. I loved how she defied stereotypes, i used to think that the 100 was so progressive. Now when i think of the 100, all i can see is JRoth in that promo for 307 being elated and talking about how it was the best episode ever. How close Clarke and Lexa would become, not a hint of the impending doom. I think about how Lexa looked like she finally allowed her heart to beat just moments before being shot by a stray bullet. I think of the look of surprise on her face.
I think of how in mere seconds JRoth reduced Lexa into nothing more than shock value and a plot device. I just think that such a character deserved more than a shocking bullet after a rare moment of happiness. I think that fans deserved better than being collateral in a showrunner’s ambition to be the most sadistic and shocking show to ever be on TV. I keep thinking of everything that Lexa was. Everything that she meant to fans. Lexa became so much more. Lexa deserved better than that. Lexa deserved better. Fans deserve better. Her death was just … We’ve seen it 100 too many times. When i think of the 100 i think of a show I can no longer watch.