As an Asian, where LGBT movies and films are almost non-existent in the country, i can’t help but to seek validation and reference of queer characters from other sources. That’s when i slowly expose myself to queer TV series like oitnb, orphan black, and the 100.
It never struck to me that i would indulged myself so badly into the 100 as i was being ignorant initially, thinking that the queer in this movie will not be written in a good way, but i decided to give it a shot.
As i learned more about the lesbian character, Lexa, her portrayal, personality and story, I slowly find myself adoring the character; she was so pure, sincere and true to her feelings and relationship with Clarke, which was truly beautiful to watch. I felt so surreal just by looking at them; being a powerful couple, wanting to lead their people well, and their development with each other which kept me looking forward on every Friday.
When the moment Lexa was killed off by a stray bullet, I immediately felt so empty and demotivated, as if I have lost someone special in my life, i never realized that a show itself will give such impact to me. I felt like i have been fooled once again, knowing that queer characters will always be treated badly. However i am glad that there’s a positive outcome of this. The whole movement and fund raising are really inspirational to me. I hope that things will come to a change for queer characters, where they can lived off happily with the person that they loved. LGBT fans deserve better.